my baby cousin jack anthony d'angiolillo was born november 25th at 9pm on the dot. i sat and talked to my cousin melise' via webcam right before she gave birth to him. she was there in the hospital in virginia, and i was in bed in tokyo japan, and it was almost like i was really there with her.

it's days like these when i truly hate my stepdad. its his fault we are here in the first place. my family is extremely close and its killing me that i already missed a wedding and the birth of little jack, but in 2 days my little layla will be born and i'll miss that, too.

yesterday was thanksgiving here. i don't have a lot to be thankful for. obviously i'm over the moon all my family is safe and healthy. and i'm thankful that my goddaughter enjoyed another year and another wonderful holiday. and i am thankful that my mother and i are still on speaking terms. that's a battle itself.

if i could ask tom the turkey for just one thing, it would be a change in plans, that it was only a mistake sending us here, and that we will be home for the christmas holidays.
i don't want to be here 3 more years. my heart can't take it.

i don't think i've cried this much in a while. i'm usually stong, but when it comes to holidays i become a huge softy. 18,000 miles turns into 50,000 miles... and 14 hour time differences can tear you apart.

Tour Invasion 2009 can't come quick enough. i just need a girly holiday, away from my mom and step dad. girls aloud always make me feel better =) and seeing them in concert is just what the doctor ordered. plus, getting wasted in newcastle just sounds like fun.


*** layla, if you decided to come out today, make sure its after your mommy finishes dinner. you know how she gets when she doesn't get to eat mommom's and grandma's cooking.

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Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: chiquitita - abba

it's been forever since i wrote in this.
first of all,
I GOT MY GIRLS ALOUD TICKETS. i'll be sitting 7 people away from the girls the first night in newcastle. then i have a ticket for 4th row the second newcastle night, but i think i'm just going to sell it. and on the 8th i'll be heading to glasgow to see the girls 5th row.

the most exciting part is that i get to travel alone to a different country. no mother breathing down my neck. i can't wait to get to europe. theres soo much that i wanna see. and i found out about the day trip to paris, and i have to take it.

second, i have just been been informed that schooling is cancelled for DOD (department of defense) dependents. thats me. so now i cant finish my school term because the active duty military people get first priority.
whatev. they can have it. i'm not fit for school anyway.

i pretty much hate living in this country. the jets and helicopters never stop flying and its soo loud during the day. they have constant warning sirens to keep you alert incase of nuclear attacks. uhh, i dont even like fire drills, so fuck off.

i need to start painting something, anything, to keep my mind off of waiting for my baby cousins to be born. they are due 1 day apart and its been like.. 11 months i swear. just come out already. everyone is having babies. i look at my goddaughter jojo and i wish i could have a baby. but then she starts crying or i have to change her diaper or hold her when she falls asleep and i think, screw that. i'm too selfish to have a baby at 19. i don't know how some of these girls are doing it at 16.

kimberley walsh was on radio one last week and i just sat there and listened to her speak. i don't even really remember what she was saying, but her voice is like a drug.
this girlcrush is getting a little out of hand. i'm afraid when i see her in person i'll just breakdown and cry. i would die.

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Current Mood: artistic
Current Music: scouting for girls

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Current Music: Girls Aloud - Control of the Knife